Perception

What we call things, are after all no more than convenient units of perception and recognizable pegs for names. The world is unspeakable, we do not know what it is, just that it is. Everything was here before us; in nirvana from the very beginning. The feeling of understanding and enlightenment is not a new state of affairs but the recognition of what always is...

Purposeless.

Human life is so purposeless in the scheme of the universe.  I guess it’s true that human purposes are pursued within a circulating universe that really has no purpose for humans at all.  What are we here to achieve with our conscious intelligence?  And why do we think we better the earth by being on it? In this world, nature and humanity function simultaneously but also in separation.  Nature can function more than fine without humans, it has it’s own order.  Humans too have their own constructed cultures and socities that affect how they function.  We need nature, but nature does not need us.

Is it a benefit to have instincts or conscious intelligence?  Actions by intelligence involve careful analysis, production and decision.  As Alan Watts has said in many of his essays, “The human being seems to be a trap set to catch himself”.  We only work to benefit ourselves.  Think of global warming.  The earth would cope, but humans would not.  We have made unintended changes to the earth through technologies, carelessness and overpopulation; yet our argument is “save the world” when we really mean to say “save ourselves”.  The earth has been through ice ages, seen many species of animals, experienced thousands of natural disasters over millions of years.  Global warming would just add to the list of occurrences that would come and/or stay but perhaps also go?

In conclusion, these are thoughts that I have.  No such things are truths by themselves, a truth is always in relation to a point of view.  This is just my point of view.  

Be happy, life's too short for anything else.

More photographs....

Back to the power station yesterday.  Had the pleasure of taking someone to model for me, despite being rubbish at giving him directions...

This is beautiful.

I wish words were sufficient enough to express and explain, everything that I long to express and explain.  It's like we try so hard to assign meanings to letters and pages of text give the thought, the expression, no justice at all really.  That's what frustrates me.  We can't comprehend what we haven't personally experienced.  Perhaps that makes us stronger, or for some, weaker - I know it would be different for everyone.  But I wish somehow our words could portray the perfect amount of depth - the sweetness of moments, the feelings we have.  It feels like words are so inaccurate, so short; so lost for real, valid and intensely overwhelming things that we want to encapsulate the meaning of.  But that's enough from me.  I will have to pair images with words if I want you to create any idea of what I am feeling right now.

One thing I've learnt in my life is that "Beauty in things exists in the mind that contemplates them".  Beauty is something that can never be compromised, it's always set by he who observes.

I am getting to this strange point in life that I have heard others refer to - that prime age.  I don't have all the free time in the world, but I have freedom.  Not the freedom of a child - as much as we long for that, I personally think that that type of innocence is overrated.  It is much more fulfilling knowing you have an understanding of things, have been exposed to numerous occurrences, places and concepts and that you can grow from it.  

I realise now that there are 'thinkers' and there are 'do'ers'.

I don't want to know the 'do-ers', I want to be one...

We spend so much of our time being these crazy, naive, insecure bundles of human.  In saying this, some of us spend so much time trying to please someone who's never going to see us and the things we do as someone else will.  Why is this so important to us?  I've learnt that if your way fits in to my way, we're alright.  But its my way all the way, just as for you its yours.  So do it your way, or no way at all.

One thing I long for is to see through someone else's eyes, as  an alternate observer.  It would be so empowering, so mind opening.  If I could somehow seep through your skin, see what you see, feel what you are, I'd do it.  I don't want to be someone else, I just want to know what its like to be you.

I read a blog recently, and from it was given wise words - "dont recycle the past".

I want to live and feel and breathe all human experiences possible - and there are limitations to that.

Make a choice to be happy - whatever it takes.

Better off now...

If you really put a small value upon yourself, rest assured that the world will not raise your price.  

~Author Unknown

Everything is amazing...

‎"I want to look at life - at the common places of existence - as if we had just turned a corner and run into it for the first time." 

- Christopher Fry

Photographing Perth's Abandoned Buildings: Part 1

Coogee Power Station


Officially opened in 1951 and at it's peak had over 250 employees.  It was closed in 1985.  Since closing, many have committed suicide from the higher levels, and there have been rumoured murders there according to a historical site I was looking at.


Here are some of my pictures from my first visit:

Montgomery Hall

Built in 1904, Montgomery Hall was a mental institution that operated until 1987 and has since been abandoned.

Here are some pics from one of my visits: Model, Kate Lowe.

Sunset Hospital/ Claremont Old Men's home

a health facility built in 1904 and closed in 1995. Several of the buildings are heritage listed, limiting the money that could be made by selling the prime location land.

Here are some pics I took from outside.  Apparently the property is Heritage listed but also privately owned, with residents living on the premises.

Alan Watts is a lad

Girls, don't sweat the small stuff.

**Our identity is never absolute, it's just a matter of perspective.

Why girls hate each other

We don’t just hate each other because we don’t know each other.

It’s far more pathetic than that.

We hate each other because we attempt to compare the non-comparable

aspects of ourselves with others.

There will always be people you just don’t like for a variety of reasons.  They may not like the same things you do, or do things that upset you or piss you off for whatever reason.  But beyond that, sadly, there are things about us females that make it really hard for us to like each other too.  In a civilized world, we’re exposed to other people; society, people that rank us and judge us and make us rank and judge ourselves in the scheme of it.  If Brittany Speares has a massive ass, where the fuck do we stand?  Do we hate ourselves or do we hate the people that her apparent “massive ass” is being compared to – aka the girls with the tight little perky asses?  You learn that you fit somewhere amongst your peers.  This makes it awfully hard to remain objective when meeting people who you feel you can’t match up to, or even more stupidly, people who have completely different personal characteristics to you.  Why do we get so caught up in competing?  If everyone says someone is hot, why must we feel inadequate in our own minds by comparing ourselves to them? 

I think the most frustrating thing is that sometimes we don’t recognize our own jealousy or the jealousy of others.  We get all down and depressed about the girl that hates us and spend too much time overthinking the reasons why when it’s probably plain and simple – you have non-comparable differences which one of you is clearly trying to rationalize (or more so, be irrational about).  I myself know that people have thought I have hated them because of the way I seem to act sometimes, when it’s really not the case.  And in the same way, I have perceived people to dislike me, based on false ideas and actions that I have misread.  Stupid really.

So although this is a blog post that a 14 or 15 year old girl should be posting, I just want to say this to all the females I know:

Shut up!  Stop bitching about everyone.  Stop comparing yourself to “the other girl”.  We know you naturally hate “the other girl” when she gets the guy you want or does something better than you.  As female friends, we always support these ideas when discussing them with each other in order to make the other person feel better.  I’ve done it, you’ve done it.  MAN UP…. or.. WOMAN UP!  Just be the person that you want to be and the person that you can be.  That should be fulfilling enough.   Why do we care so much about what people think of us?  Shouldn’t we find peace of mind in knowing how we see ourselves?  You are the person you create yourself to be, not just in your own mind but in your actions.