Dreams are renewable. No matter what our age or condition, there are still untapped possibilities within us and new beauty waiting to be born.

-Dale Turner-

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

As 2011 ends..

Random shots from 2011, not all the best quality/composed well, but good times :)

A million smiles...

It's hard to stay mad when there is so much beauty in the world....
(probably the 300th time I have quoted that).

Simple pleasures.
I feel so at peace with the world. 
Originally I wanted to go on a massive rant about recent USDA articles I have read and all the discoveries I have made, but there is just too much beauty in my life that I can't ignore.

I am meditating without even really meaning to, my mind and body have completely encapsulated me in this strange state, taken hold and discarded all other nonsense things/thoughts (actually things/thoughts with complete sense...things with TOO MUCH SENSE).  I feel this is one of my most pleasure and intense mind detoxes.

I will be scatty tonight with blogging.  I don't expect it will get read but these ramblings must be documented.  I can’t describe the state of bliss my mind is in right now.  I am on a high fuelled by energy, I am ambitious and I am happy and I am free.

Isn't it funny how people envy children for their innocence and freedom?
Is it perhaps because it is so hard to be in control of one's innocence and freedom?
Although awareness and exposure makes us lose control, we can so easily be free,
If only we allow ourselves to be.


It is amazing how much power is in a song…
And in a mind…
And in a flower or a leaf or a particular time of day when the light bounces and makes pretty colours in the sky which causes the trees to cast beautiful shadows, surrounded by golden light.
Even something as simple as light itself, has the power to completely change the mood of a photograph, the emotions we feel and the way we see things.
How much beauty there is, just look.


How lucky we are to be gifted in one thing or another.
Finding that thing is a challenge sometimes, as is practice and pursuit - once it has been found.

A gift does not have to be a talent, but something absolutely possible and present (although sometimes it may need to be aquired or learnt to be utelised).
Choice is one of these things - how lucky we are to have a choice about the eyes we see the world with.
This can be argued, for do we have a choice in what we physically see?
 Not always.
  It's the choice we have in changing what we can see if we don't like it, for the better.


So much goes unnoticed about people, maybe it’s a beautiful mystery,
 but maybe it is also a fault in itself…


I love stupid metaphors.  They flow into my head like water.  It’s how I express perspective.  Right now I am thinking about my life; my character; my canvas.
My canvas shows visible and vivid outlines, but the masterpiece hasn’t been finished yet. 
The foundations are unfortunately or fortunately stuck as are, but lines can be tweaked and maybe made stronger and greater than I was first able to make them when I started.  
I realise I have ambition when I am aware that I have lost my way but can easily find it again;
when I think about how I can strive harder and better myself further to be who and what I want to be, both now and in the future.


If you have to tell people that you have power, you don’t. 
If you have to tell people what you are, you aren’t... well sometimes.
Habbits become character, so get into good ones.


Do not have expectations of others, only yourself. 

 If you do you will always be assuming, always be waiting,
always be allowing some degree of absent control.  
Whilst this is good, it is not always desirable, for assumption changes everything.  


If you want to cut your own throat, don’t come to me for a bandage.
I can help with the occasional splinters and even sometimes broken arms or nose bleeds,
but anything so drastic is something that should never be considered my concern.  Far too long have your problems been my concern and n
egative energy is absolutely draining.
 I don't want to have all the life sucked from me.


We are.


Sunday, November 13, 2011

Human or not...

My favourite things...

This is one of my more pointless blogs.... just a heads up

OMG.....thank you Dave Tipper.

Friday, November 11, 2011


Umshini Wam

Saturday, November 05, 2011


Friday, November 04, 2011

Our sexuality

I am reading the most engaging and truly fascinating book on human sexuality.  It seems we are instinctual when it comes to our sexuality but really, instinct is the tip of the iceburg.  I think many find it a true challenge to be in touch with their sexuality and this is partly to do with their awareness and understanding of the world around them.  In order to understand one's sexuality, so much else must be embraced.  I will definitely write more about this when I can think straight (am not as tired).  I feel like I'm repeating myself and making no sense but I had to express my excitement.  If anyone ever gets the chance to read anything by Michael Foucalt or Betty Dodson - you will never regret it.

Communication driver.

Without communication, we are nothing; the world is nothing.

How would everything work without driving systems?
Think about the cells and systems that make up one single organism..

And all the systems in which that one organism has relevance.
Think of your personal interactions.. you're relationships.

Think of war... poverty... sexuality.
Communication drives us.

I think we take for granted how important it really is.
I know I do.

Old thoughts.

Given the elusive character of human life, it doesn't surprise me that people resort to mystical interpretations. However, it is amazing what extensive stories can be told to explain things we don't yet understand. Do people need something to ease their minds as we will never know everything in our lifetimes; or for that matter, any lifetime perhaps? Life is short but I would rather be ignorant than substitute answers with myths crafted long before science ever took off. Excuse me for my insensitivity. This is all a matter of my own perspective.

Wednesday, October 26, 2011


This intimacy is rare..
And that's why you're so precious.


"Of course there is not formula for success except, perhaps, an unconditional acceptance of life and what it brings."

Habit gone

Breaking the moment of past habits is the challenge here: In the life of the spirit you are always at the beginning...

Monday, October 24, 2011


“We do not grow absolutely, chronologically. We grow sometimes in one dimension, and not in another; unevenly. We grow partially. We are relative. We are mature in one realm, childish in another. The past, present, and future mingle and pull us backward, forward, or fix us in the present. We are made up of layers, cells, constellations.”
—Anais Nin

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Letting go.

You seem to be blinded by manipulation.
A new self of yours is being created.
With it may come happiness, in which I am glad.
But this change - its making you just like everyone else.
Unique as you have been, indigo,
The only reason you don't understand me is because you are different.
But your perception moves in the ways in which you want it to.
You still see what you wish to see,
Even though you're not the real you anymore.
Don't become a clone... I never tried to change you.
Maybe I should have.. but life does what it does.
You are entitled to what you deserve...
I hope you are happy.

Leave those behind who hurt you.
They are merely bricks in the wall.
You will find many more people on your journey,
Never settle for less than you deserve.

Happy place, I am coming...

To be calm...

 “It seldom happens that a man changes his life through his habitual reasoning. No matter how fully he may sense the new plans and aims revealed to him by reason, he continues to plod along in old paths until his life becomes frustrating and unbearable—he finally makes the change only when his usual life can no longer be tolerated.”
—Leo Tolstoy

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Liar, liar

It's funny how much some people lie to the point where you don't know if what they are saying is the truth.
I'm sick of hearing you laugh about her shitty tattoos, failed sex life, annoying habits and other associated things.
You lie to me probably just as much as you do her.
But I'm done with your shit....
For good this time.


I never did blog about how truly wonderful this was.
If you ever have a chance, Wicked is well worth it...

Saturday, October 15, 2011

What's on your plate?

Thursday, October 13, 2011

It's perspective

You cannot have East without having West. And you cannot have night without having day. And you cannot have summer without having winter. We have to accept the life in its totality. There is a certain rhythm, there is a polarity...

Be greatful.

Gratefulness is the key to a happy life that we hold in our hands, because if we are not grateful, then no matter how much we have we will not be happy -- because we will always want to have something else or something more."
David Steindl-Rast

Tuesday, October 04, 2011


Diamonds from the pavement 
Where a broken glass had been Just like these troubles
that I'm leaving to the wind ..


Walk your lonely street and think of me.
And even if you try to pull apart my pieces,

I know the real reason you are scared.
You know you can't break me, 
And you know that I'm fine with being just as I am, without you.

Sexology is over for the semester :(

Monday, October 03, 2011

Warm and fuzzy


Im sure this has been said by someone in the world before but I thought back to a book I once read and had to post something from my train of thought...

Never forget your own insignificance, but consider yourself significant.

We are are all tiny little insignificant life forms floating deep within the universe.
And because there are many of us, this makes us even less significant in the scope of our own kind.
However, this is your life and you are important.
Never forget the scope of your existence, either way.


Pursue the things that catch your heart.